Sunday, July 26, 2015

The last words Chris text me in the early hours before the shooting. The next time I heard from him he called to tell me he was shot. It was truly traumatic. In this message, Chris was talking about the tornados coming through town that night, little did we know it was a glimpse of the storms we would be preserving through for the next year and a half. Marriage is hard. Amen? Marriage throughout a shooting, 48 operations, and hundreds of hours of woundcare day after day is maddening. Like, we feel crazy. We struggle to feel like ourselves daily. But, God told my husband then as He tells him now, and these simple words carry heavy meaning when repeated - it's gonna be OK. #believing #Jesus

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt 

Tuesday, June 23, 2015

 I realized that the deepest spiritual lessons are not learned by His letting us have our way in the end, but by His making us wait, bearing with us in love and patience until we are able to honestly to pray what He taught His disciples to pray: Thy will be done - Elisabeth Elliot 

Thursday, June 11, 2015

A few weeks from now, I'm striving (BIG strive) to get Chris and I to a beach with family. I will have to order the correct quantity of supplies, take two suitcases full of woundcare stuff, and coolers of his nutrition and IV fluids to manage for 6 days but I'm determined. I've already started prepping/packing. We can do this. One of the hardest parts of living through a prolonged medical issue is remembering that life goes on... 

Meet Howard & Connie, our new friends. 

While Chris was in the hospital, Howard wrote me a beautiful letter about Connie's medical struggles. It was the first letter I had recieved where someone had very similar belly trauma. I stained the letter with tears and I remember being so thankful for their bravery to share their story with us. Our friendship was instantly formed because we could relate. 

I'm thankful for this kind, encouraging couple. We have a lot to learn from them. Howard was an incredible caretaker for Connie during their trails, and we have a great deal of respect for them because of what they endured together. 

"You'll get through this..." the Lord whispers daily. And God sent us Howard and Connie as proof. 

Monday, May 25, 2015


The greatest gift I've ever been given is more time with Christopher Sparkman.

Here is a wedding video my sister made for us from two years ago, today.

I wanted a strong marriage, God gave me the opportunity to strengthen. I wanted a deep love, God gave us the opportunity to take our love to new levels. I wanted to celebrate 50+ anniversaries, God made me fall-on-my-knees grateful for 2.

Happy 2nd Anniversary, Christopher. I'm going to love you for all of our days. <3